Wednesday, September 30, 2009

A unrequited letter

Dear Garlic, Cocktails, Onions, and Chocolate,
My heart hurts from missing you all so much. I can't believe that it has been six long months since I last ate you. I think about you all at every meal and yearn to touch my lips to you once more. I knew when I started breastfeeding that I might have to cut one of you out of my diet because you could make my little fella get a tummy ache. What sort of a cruel world is it when a nursing mom has to say goodbye to that which she desires so deeply? My sweet baby has no idea how much I must love him to choose him over you. It's a sacrifice I make out of love but it is a sacrifice that leaves me full of longing.


Garlic...oh garlic, you are in almost everything that I love. From Pizza to Spaghetti, I miss you so much. My food has lost it's zing without you here to dance on my pallet.

Cocktails, I miss you so much. I need a White Russian and I need one now. I miss having a glass of wine with dinner. I miss drinking Cosmopolitans and making bad decisions. I miss having adult conversations over flickering candles and the clink of a toast.



Onions, why do you have to be so delicious? Why do I have to love eating you so damn much? I miss hearing the sizzle of a plate of fajitas coming my way at On The Border. I miss biting into a crisp onion on my cheeseburger.


Chocolate, I think that I miss you most of all. My mouth is watering just thinking of you. It's so hard to pick a favorite. I long for chocolate cake or a chocolate shake, I would even settle for a Hershey Kiss right now, even though that would just tease me. Oh chocolate...I need you!

If Koen is not done breastfeeding in 6 more months then I am going to cut him off. I can't go on living like this much longer. To you all I send my deepest love!

Until we meet again,
Leigh

16 comments:

MaryRC said...

oh you poor poor dear. my first was SO affected by your exact list, it was heck! i was determined my next would just deal with it... she did.. but each kid is different, my first spit up and was gassy with everything i ate, 2nd never, and i mean never spit up and her gassyness never bothered her... anyway, ill mourn for you. tell you baby that garlic milk rocks!

Theta Mom said...

Girl, my heart is aching for you on the cocktail front. All I wanted when I couldn't have one was a couple glasses of wine, even one would have done the job...It was so freakin hard. I feel for you!

vanilla said...

I can't go on living like this much longer.--

Sure you can. Think of it this way. You have adopted a healthier life style not only for Koen, but for yourself.

There is something for you, Leigh, over on String Too Short to Tie.

Lee the Hot Flash Queen said...

LOL! I say drink and get him drunk. Might help him sleep at night!

Danielle said...

Why can't you eat chocolate?
PS. If you like beer, they say it helps your milk supply. Just giving you a little excuse to indulge. :)

Neuffj said...

OK, so I may sound "oh so stupid" but I've never had children. And this sounds dreadful! GRRRR.... sorry! I hope he comes off the teat soon. The Neuff

JennyMac said...

that is going to be one fantastic reunion!!!!

gretchen said...

But just think of the amazing binge you get to go on when your guy is weaned! Woohoo!

SPEAKING FROM THE CRIB said...

i think the letter should've been to your boobs and why they couldn't be smarter about weeding out those things so they wouldn't be fed to your son

Alicia said...

oh girl...i feel your pain...truly i do...hang in there...you're halfway done already!! and heck, a little cocktail now and again is good for the baby, helps them sleep better!! lol

Elle Bee said...

Haha! You are a clever & funny writer! I missed blue cheese and gorgonzola the most when I was pregnant. I think I started back up while nursing though. But I'd see pear/blue cheese/walnut salads EVERYWHERE while pregnant. I think I even saw them in my dreams. If I could have ordered one in the hospital after my c-section, I would have.
Hugs to you--you're a good mommy to sacrifice these delicious things!
Elle

2 Toddlers and Me said...

No chocolate?! That would be the worst for me. I never liked chocolate much until I was pregnant with my son. There was a lot of stress and since I couldn't work out or drink, chocolate became my vice and it won't go away! I feel for you, you can do it though. Not much longer and it's worth it to have a happy healthy boy.

Stephanie Faris said...

Oh wow. You had to give up CHOCOLATE? That IS love!

♥ Teresa ♥ said...

Wow, chocolate?!? It is tough but so worth it. In a few years you will look back and laugh. No really. You will.

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kyslp said...

The next time someone puts a guilt trip over on me for having formula-fed kids, I'm going to read this again. I can say "at least I had garlic, and chocolate, and wine -(ohmy)".

Alice in Wonderland said...

Gosh! My heart really goes out to you! I just couldn't live without garlic and chocolate!
Half-way there now, so don't give up.
Just think how much you can indulge yourself after you have given your baby the best start in life!