Thursday, November 5, 2009
My baby was screaming and in the darkness, I stumbled over toys on the floor to get to him in his crib. I scooped him up and wiped his tears. We snuggled as he nursed and I lulled him back to sleep. "This feels right" I thought to myself as I looked at the clock. It was 4 am and I felt peaceful as I looked down at my sweet boy whose breath was heavy between whimpers. I'm a sucker.
Rewind to 12 hours earlier. I am sitting in the pediatrician's office for Koen's 6 month check up. "It's time to let him cry it out." our Dr. announced. Just like that, as if it was just part of what she says to a mother of a 6 month old. "His tummy shouldn't need any milk in the middle of the night anymore." she continued "Feed him at 9 pm then close the door and don't come back in until the morning. You'll have three hard nights and then he'll sleep through the night."
Uhhhh....I'm just not a hard ass mama. Not me, no, I'm more like a Koala. If I came equipped with a pouch, my baby would be nestled in there all of the time. To my credit, I did let him cry for a bit. It just didn't seem natural to me. Every instinct in my bones told me to go save my crying baby and pull him into bed with me (taking all SIDS precautions, of course!) We slept curled into one another until the sun came up.
We had a follow up visit a few days later with the pediatrician. Koen had been a constant snot factory. After a full check up, it turned out that he was suffering from a double ear infection. No wonder the sweet boy was crying out for me in the night. My intuition had been right on.
There are so many voices out there telling moms to detach from their babies and not answer their cries. I'm sure that it works for many families or it wouldn't be so popular. In my home though, my baby is swooped up and in my heart, it just feels natural to lavish my baby with as much love as possible. He can complain about it on a therapist's couch one day if he needs to.
For now, I'm learning to trust me Marsupial ways.
Posted by leigh hewett at 6:04 AM