This goes beyond a resolution, this is a paradigm shift. I'm ready now to do all of the things that I have been too afraid to do. Things like...
*Let my baby "cry it out" so that he can actually learn to fall asleep on his own and I will get a good night's sleep for the first time in almost a year. I will still get to snuggle with him and he will still love me and know that I love him and we both be well rested and much happier. Case closed.
*Join Weight Watchers, count up my damn points, get off my fat ass and work out. I have lost and gained back the same 40 pounds three times in the last 15 years. It doesn't matter that I've had two kids. I need to learn to enjoy losing weight as much as I love to gain it. I love food and I can still love food but in moderation.
*Grow my hair out. I chopped it off in a hormonal tizzy and I miss my long curls so much. So, I will purchase headbands, barrettes, and cute hats. I will pull my hair into tiny pigtails the moment my hair can squeeze into a rubber band and I will get my long hair back.
*Write my novel. I have the entire story outlined. The whole thing is stuck in my head. I can't type the words fast enough. I am my own worst critic. I question myself and it's not serving me well to hold myself back anymore. So, I will write for 20 minutes everyday until I have my first draft done. I will edit and revise and edit again. I will send it off, I will write query letters, and I will get published. My book will be in bookstores. People will want to read it.
*I will finally allow myself to delve into photography. I've been timid and insecure about being an artist for too long. I have a vision and I will pick up my camera and I will capture all that is in my mind and I won't be afraid to put my creativity in a frame and hang it on the wall for the world to see.
This little spark will shine.