Neglect.
That is the word that comes
to mind when I think of myself.
It happened slowly
over the years while
I've been a full time stay-at-home mom.
I thought that sending my youngest to school
would throw me into an identity crisis.
After all, I've identified myself as mama
all these years.
It's not at all like I anticipated.
Granted, Koen is only gone for 3 hours in the morning
but I have discovered just how
badly I've needed some "Mama time".
That is the word that comes
to mind when I think of myself.
It happened slowly
over the years while
I've been a full time stay-at-home mom.
I thought that sending my youngest to school
would throw me into an identity crisis.
After all, I've identified myself as mama
all these years.
It's not at all like I anticipated.
Granted, Koen is only gone for 3 hours in the morning
but I have discovered just how
badly I've needed some "Mama time".
So, now I have time to breath.
I've decided to practice
Deepk Chopra's Free to Love 21-Day Meditation Challenge.
I sprawl out my yoga mat, all alone,
and perch on my pretty pillow to breath.
I breath in and say "soul".
I breath out and say "hum".
Before I know it,
my soul is humming.I had no idea
how badly I needed to simply breath.
I can feel my life slowly shifting
and I like the direction that it's headed.
5 comments:
How lovely! To breathe those lovely words in and out and relax! Cherish that mama time. IT does grow over the years until you find yourself pampered with a nice balance of your kids and your quiet time!
I love that you are finding time each day to focus on you. That is a beautiful thing.
I remember very fondly those days when my youngest started school. I, too, used the free time for "me" time.
And sometimes, for a quick, child-free shopping trip!
=)
Meditation and yoga can cure or ward off everything!
It's funny to read your post on meditation one day after I decided to meditate while taking a shower in the morning. I have a ten months old baby who is extremely active. He stands still only when he pooes. I used to meditate before getting pregnant. Two days ago, I realized I badly need some minutes of peacefulness. So, I leave my baby with his father and for ten minutes, I let the water trickle down my body while I empty my mind. At the end, I breathe, I get out of shower and I feel I am ready to face the day in the company of my super active baby. :)
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