Lately I've felt uninspired.
I have moments where I wonder
why anyone would care to pop over here
and read about my silly little life.
The truth is that being a full time mom
is an intense gig because I get very little time for me.
It's hard to be inspired
when almost every moment of my day
is filled up by fulfilling my children's needs.
I'm fetching them snacks,
breaking up fights,
cleaning up messes,
teaching them life lessons,
enforcing rules,
playing games,
kissing boo boos.
The list could go on and on.
I'm not complaining,
I love this gig
and wouldn't give up this time
for the world.
I realized the other day
that I haven't been doing the things I love
because I'm so busy.
I haven't read a book for fun in forever.
I was reading a book
then I lost it and searched everywhere
for weeks and weeks.
So I gave up reading
because who has extra time
to search for lost books?
Not me.
I haven't taken photographs
of pretty things because
I'm just too tired to stop
and celebrate the pretty things in the world.
I see a beautiful flower and
I mumble "That's purty" in my mind
and then I just keep on walking.
That just not like me
to pass up stopping to say
hello to a flower.
My novel fell on the backburner.
I tried to write but would get interrupted
by these little people all the time.
So I quit writing.
I went limp.
My soul went hollow.
Until I found that lost book the other day
It was sitting on the shelf the whole time,
right next to me.
Imagine that.
So, I picked it up and started reading...
then I remembered that
I have to make time to do the things
that make me happy.
Like blogging about my silly little life,
exercising, meditating,
taking a moment to put on lipstick
before I leave the house,
brunching with a good friend,
or simply taking a shower more than once a week.
I have to do these things to stay sane.
Lord knows that I have more
than enough crazy in my life right now.
{images found
here}