Thursday, November 12, 2009

A sad farewell

I have a problem...the kind of problem where I almost want to organize an intervention for myself. It's shameful and shocking what I allow myself to eat. I have so few vices left that I have managed to denounce guilt when it comes to indulging in food. My life is so restricted right now. Between a limited diet due to breastfeeding and the fact that it's just not cool to be drunk at noon when you are a mother, my life is a free for all when it comes to junk food.

I can't get away with it anymore. My baby is almost 7 months old and the "I just had a baby excuse" is played out. I don't have it in me to diet right now, I'm just so busy taking care of everyone else that the thought of counting points or reading labels makes me yearn for a padded room.

Instead, I am choosing to say goodbye to the most ridiculous foods that have made it into my diet over the last few months. I have no business eating these foods. I mean, who do I think I am, Rachel Zoe? No, I am a chubby mom living in Georgia. I am not a starlet living in LA whose ribs stick out. It's time to say goodbye to my favorite culinary vices.

Oh, how I love Pepperidge Farm Coconut Cake.
My grandmother always had a box in her fridge,
It reminds me of home and is my ultimate comfort food.
I don't think that it's a good idea
to eat an entire cake for lunch.
Yeah...that behaviour has got to stop!

This little addiction is the most shameful.
G and I enjoy making cup cakes together.
Baking is a great way to get Griffin just distracted just enough
to tell me all about his day at school.
Well...sometimes I black out
and when I wake up
I am standing over the sink eating icing
from the jar with a spoon
in the shadows of my kitchen.
It's a problem

We eat at Mcdonalds at least once a week.
I love to feed Griffin a Happy Meal
and then let him run around like a maniac in the Play area.
I always order the Big Mac combo.
Those days are over...goodbye special sauce!
I'm switching over the the Grilled Chicken sandwich.
We all know that there is no way I am going to order a salad!
I'm being realistic here.

This is the least harmful of all my current indulgences. just doesn't seem right for a breastfeeding mom
to drink 4 Caffeine Free Diet Dr. Pepper's a day.
I know that I'm sucking all of the calcium from my bones.
I feel it happening with each sip.
So...I'm no longer going to be a Pepper.
Water, yeah that's it, maybe I should consider drinking some water!

So there you have it. I've lamented each of these wonderful treats and I'm ready to move on. I am well on my way to be skinny biatch I want to be and becoming the hot mama that I almost am!


Lee said...

Good for you! I am doing the fat flush starting on monday.

JamieLynn said...

I feel your pain, and I definitely can't blame it on the baby...4 years is a while to hold the baby weight. I've been able to get exercising. I walk between 1-2 hours a day but I can't control my eating. I swear I ate 75% of J-Bug's halloween candy. And as for Diet Dr. Pepper. I can't give it up. I drink a 2-liter a day.

KristinFilut said...

Oh honey, my baby is 9 and I'm still trying to use gaining 70 pounds with her as my excuse...

Just this morning I said good-bye to all kinds of yummy things and hello to a diet... Boo.

Unknown said...

I so feel ya on this one.. I weighed my least during my last pregnancy, of course I had gall bladder issues but when the only ting you can keep down is water and grilled chicken you lose weight. I too am deciding to make some changes. I am going to be an ex smoker by Christmas and I am going to lose weight.. I refuse to eat teh peanut butter balls we make this year or the fudge or the red velvet cake with cream cheese frosting or the deformed sugar cookies made by little hands who need mommies opinion on how they taste lol..

Matty said...

I feel for ya. Good luck, because junk food is my weakness too. I don't give them up. I just keep it in moderation.

Ally Wasmund said...

i'm very proud of you!! it's tough changing that part of your lifestyle. been there, done that. i'm rooting for ya! you can do this :)

Unknown said...


I am so proud of you & you're very brave to post this.

I quite Diet Coke a few months ago and I have felt TONS better. It will be hard for those first few days, but don't give up!

As for the junk food, I definitely have my vices, too. We don't really do fast food, though. Maybe you could take Griffen to a new place for lunch sometimes---I'm not sure what you have there, but maybe something like Panera or Einstein's or even Subway, etc...

I also find that if I don't buy the crap, I eat less of it. Not always easy to resist the chips & donuts in the grocery store, but it is definitely true I eat better when I don't have Lays lurking in my pantry.

I would love to lose 10-15 pounds. It's slow going. It's also hard b/c I'm an emotional eater. Every time I'm tired or stressed or feeling down, I start shoveling things down my throat. Which is beyond bad.

Thank you so much for posting about something a lot of us are struggling with!!

Alicia said...

ohhhhh no.....i'll be here for you if you need help through the mourning process....i'll be waiting...with carrot sticks on hand!

Danielle said...

I just ate a tub of that icing last night. My baby is 2 1/2 now, and people look at me funny when I try to use the "I just had a baby" excuse.
I get it!

Tami G said...

Good for you! the first step is admitting it and making a plan! YAY! {and telling all your bloggy friends holds u accountable!}

here's a tip (well 2) my trainer told me:
1. if it's not in the house you can't eat it.
2. when you do crave something sweet - don't DENY yourself - THAT is what makes you overeat - instead take ONE BITE and savor it! it will curb the craving and prevent over indulgence later. BUT you have to stop at one bite! (which is better than ZERO!!)

I'm here if you need me :)

Tami G

MJ said...

Thanks a lot, now I want a Coconut Cake in the worse way!!

Water is transformed with some Crystal Light (or any generic brand of the same type) - I do not miss my soda at all :o)

Good Luck, we are here for you every step of the way

Traci said...

You are in good company with many of us! I cheer you on and say bravo for you and knowing the importance of taking care of yourself. My father died at 53 because he didn't take care of himself. He missed being at my wedding and meeting his grandkids.
Don't worry if you stumble, get back on track and don't beat yourself up over a misstep!

nope said...

I think it's easier to take small steps like you're doing. Getting rid of the worst first is a great start!

Tracie said...

You're giving up Diet Dr. Pepper!?!?!
Good God woman, have you gone mad????

Raoulysgirl said...

Can I borrow a little bit of your gusto? 'Cuz I changed my diet in July and it's still kicking my ass!!!!

My hat's off to you, though. I didn't know southern girls COULD diet. I only live in the Midwest (MO), and our love of all things deep fried in bacon grease is rumored to be only half that of y'alls. LMAO!!!

Seriously though, good luck! It is a real struggle sometimes to keep the frame of mind required to make such a life change. As I said, I did it in July and still struggle with "good" choices. One day at a time...that's the best advice that I can give!!

Liz Mays said...

I could deal with all of it but the Dr. Pepper. I will hold you close in thought! Good luck!

Janna said...

Just remember you will be saying goodbye to thicker hips, thighs and tummy too and hello to your skinny clothes! :)thanks for the laugh

Holly Lefevre said...

I so remember the Pepperidge Farms Coconut mom and dad used to buy it.

I lost the weight from the second baby, problem is there was/is still some hanging around from the 1st (he's 8)

Good luck!

Ducky said...

I'm mourning with you... I'll even wear black for the next week. I mourned most all of this stuff 10 years ago. The doc said "YUP, Type 1 more waffels and syrup for every meal"

It's hard, I've been there, but you can do it (although, I haven't given up Diet Dr. Pepper...that's one Dr. I'm ALWAYS gonna follow)

The girl with the flour in her hair said...

This is a really sad post. I almost cried. I'm so sorry to hear this. Terrible. Why must life be so difficult??

But I don't see any problem with being drunk at noon. You know, whatever it takes to get through the day...


Well if you're going to say farewell to all that, you'd better say hello to Prozac.


Unknown said...

Nooo! Be the Pepper. I had a particularly frightful week of junk food. I may have to get on that wagon. Good luck!

Unknown said...

All the best to staying on the wagon! ;)

I feel your agony... but I haven't felt it enough to get off my fat butt to do anything yet. So hats off to you! :)

2Wired2Tired said...

Those all look so delicious. You just made me really hungry! Good luck though, I bet you'll have tons more energy once you cut these things out - or so they say.